Last Day of 2008

On the last day of 2009, I got diarrhea early in the morning...5am.. OMG!!
Got not enought sleep, with my panda eyes to work...
Rushing for staff appraisal.. own appraisal and some other pending task before I move into new role...1 word.. BUSY .. but enjoying..
I change a new hair style.. curler than the previous one
asked my hubby, how was it? he just starred at him without saying anything. felt like playing piano infront of buffalo. ~~
Anyway, I know he like it.. ha ha
Wishing all my frens -- healthy and happy always..
My hubby.. soon soon lei lei.. yat bun man lei.. :)

Relationship

I accidently read a blog of my ex-taiwanese colleage. she broke up with her 9 years relationship BF during her assignment in Malaysia. Reason of broken up - no feel. What a lamb reason. Very clear from her blog, she still not able to let go the relationship, so pity on her and at the sametime, i feel, relationship can be so fragile sometimes.

I still remember how sad was her during her time in Malaysia. I thought she can let go before she go back to Taiwan. Apparently, I'm wrong. I underestimate the important of him to her. Now i know why ppl always quote this "we need only 1 minutes to love a person, but need to spend a lifetime to forget that person". I'm "sam tong" at my friend, still couldn't let her him go. And I really look down to those guy say "no feel" to a gal when their are in such a long relationship. Why dont the guy put more effort to maintain it instead of breaking it? The same incidents happened to several of my friends, is this the standard reason normally given? Why must a gal to accept all his irresponsible excuse. Really can't understand and I choose not to understand....

Count Down to 2009

Entering the first day of December, started to count down for holidays and the holidays mood is "officially" being kicked off!! ha ha..

Few days ago, I suddenly "realise" that.. I'm approaching 30!! OMG.. 30 used to be a big number for me, but it is so near to me now. I felt sad for 2 seconds anyway.. hmm.. the most wonderful and valuable 10 years is flying in a clip of eyes, what will I become in another 10 years? I keep on asking myself. Be a monther cum wife cum career women? Ohhh.. another word - WOMEN. It never comes to my mind as I'll be a women one day. I can't accept those teenagers call me aunty. It's such a heavy word for me.. :(

An Article

An article to share, it is sad, but remind us to appreciate our love one.

他，忙于工作，每天早出晚归。

她，结婚后就辞去工作，每天呆在家里。

他，拼命工作，努力赚钱，为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。

她，辞去工作，全职顾家，为的是守护两人幸福的现在。

他很爱她，她很爱他。

他很老实，她对他在外面工作很放心，绝对信任他。

她很独立，他对她照顾自己很有信心，绝对放心她。

每天夜里，当他夜归时，煲里还有温着地炖汤。

每天早上，当他起床时，桌上都有温暖的咖啡。

这样的日子，从结婚后开始，持续了三年。

她从不过问他的工作，只是知道他在越升越高，日子渐渐富裕起来。

他从不过问她的家事，只是知道家里井井有条，家庭依旧和谐幸福。

他不喜欢电脑，每天工作就对着电脑N小时了，回家决不碰电脑。

她不喜欢电脑，每天却在独处的时候对着电脑N小时，非常忙碌。

直到有一天，他接到一通电话。

"请问是陈先生吗？你的太太晕倒被送入院，她的子宫癌已经是末期了，请你来见他最后
一面。"

晴天霹雳，他赶到医院，看着她悲痛欲绝的问她为什么不告诉他。

她看着他，对着他微笑，告诉他她爱他然后微笑着永远闭上眼睛。

他失去了生活中心，他失去了人生方向，他失去了他爱的她。

他后悔，他懊恼，他怨恨他自己，为什么没花多一点时间陪她，去了解她。

妻子出殡后，他独自回到空无一人的家里，厨房里不再有炖汤。

他坐在客厅里发呆，想哭却哭不出来。

这时，他看到了客厅里的电脑，他想看看照片，这些他仅剩和她美丽的回忆。

第一次开启家里的电脑，看到桌面上有个叫《老公，是我》的文件夹，里面有1095个录
影片段。

电脑荧幕上出现了一张熟悉的脸孔~

扬声器传来熟悉的声音~

他的眼泪，终于决堤而出。

"老公，是我啦~~从今天开始由我陪伴你过吧~~不过你要答应我，一天只能看一个哦~~我
们终于结婚了，你知道吗？能嫁给你是我一生最大的幸福，我会把每天发生的事情记录在
一段录影日记里，几年后的结婚纪念日拿给你看，一定很有趣的~................"

影片接下来就是她絮絮不休的说着一些生活上的琐事和他们之间的事情，他看了看影片
日期，结婚的那一天~

第一次，他违背了深爱的她的意愿，一个又一个的影片看了下去~

"老公，你很忙碌，要好好照顾身体哦........."

"老公，今天难得你陪我去购物，我好开心哦........."

"老公，一周年纪念日了，谢谢你的礼物，对不起还没能给你生个孩子，我们再努力
吧......"

"老公，我身体很不舒服，不懂为什么常常会肚子痛，明天我自己去看医生好了......"

"老公，医生说我患上了子宫癌，建议我切除，你说他是不是傻的，我还想要孩子
呐......."

"老公，我有乖乖做治疗的，药都有吃，不过我不要做化疗，剃了头就不美了，你一定会
笑我的......."

"老公，医生又叫我切除子宫了，他说不然就太迟了，我痛骂了他一顿，这家伙不知好
歹，总是要破坏我们的计划......."

"老公，我看我应该不怎么行了，请原谅我不告诉你，因为我想你永远记住我美好的一
面，这些事情我自己来就好了......."

"老公，我们结婚都已经三年了，我想我是撑不住了，我不在后，你要好好生活，炖汤的
食谱都在电脑里，咖啡的冲泡方法也在里面，一切都为你准备好了，你要好好学着照顾自
己。"

"老公，如果你一天看一个录影，现在已经三年了，你应该习惯了没有我的生活吧？是时
候把我收在回忆里自己走出来了，你的人生还很漫长，找个爱你和你爱的人继续生活吧。"

"老公，应该是这几天了，我知道时间到了。不过我猜想你应该不会那么老实一天看一个
影片吧，看到这里你也累坏了啦，我也很累了，是时候离开了。记得，好好继续生活
啊。你还记得吗？你说过你会爱我一辈子的，我也回答你我会用我的一辈子去爱你。现在
我们的诺言都实现了，我要离开了，我的确用了我的一辈子去爱你。你也别难过了，你已
经爱了我一辈子了，这样的我们，很幸福不是吗？.......最后一次了，老公，对不起，我
爱你....."

看完了1095个影片，他不知道已经过了多久，泪水流了又干，干了又流。

打开窗帘，温暖的阳光照了进来，他对着晴朗的天空，轻轻说了句~

"老婆，对不起，我爱你~"

Congratulation! KE

Just got to know, my college mate - Kim Eng is getting married by 18 Feb 2009, heartfelt congratulation to KE and her hubby.

From a big gang of coursemate, left 6 of us are keep in touch eversince graduated. We started our monthly outing just sometimes ago. May be gain in age, found friendship is not easy to get, it always not at the end of our fingertip which we can grab it anytime, anywhere.

After KE, our gang left only LC .. she is SINGLE!! but not available.. ha ha... can't wait to hear a good news from her!!

月熊，你听过吗?

I read an article from a circulating email ... I never know the existance of China Bear, but I know about 熊胆汁... and how cruel is chinese to believe 熊胆汁 is really nourishing.. ?

月熊，你听过吗?
上个星期参加了一个佛学营，在里面与一个小学妹重遇，六天的营她就坐在我前座。有一天忽然看见她穿了一件印有“月熊”字眼的T恤，上面还有一行Rescue The China Bear。我好奇地问她china bear是不是熊猫？（虽然袖子上有一个logo画着一个完全不像熊猫的熊，可是中国面临绝种的熊类，我真的只认识熊猫嘛 ）她说不是，月熊是中国一种黑熊，在胸间有一块v型，白色的毛，因此得名。虽然两种都是快绝种的熊，可是从她的讲解中，可以知道月熊的命运比熊猫坎坷许多，全因它们能够提供中国人认为是非常滋补的中药--熊胆汁。 中国四川有许多大大小小的月熊农场。被捕到的月熊都被关在一个只有它们体型般大小的铁笼里。在关进笼之前，它们都会进行一个手术，主要是在月熊胸膛开一个洞，再把胆囊拉出来，然后把一枝比铅笔还要粗的铁管插进胆囊里，方便他们定时抽取胆汁。
从此，月熊就会在这笼子里度过它的一生。一般上它们的生命最多只能有二十年。能想象吗？一只在野生无拘无束生活着的动物被人关进一个转身也不能的笼子里，过不久就被人用针筒刺进胆囊，抽取胆汁……

Animals Asia Foundation是一个以救出月熊，还它们自由身心的NGO。据他们的义工说，那些被救出的月熊，有很多已经是遍体鳞伤，因为抽胆汁的痛，它们会用身体、头撞铁笼，用爪子乱抓，乱刮。有一些更是被农场的工人鞭打，主要是使它们被驯服，方便取胆汁。不过最让Animals Asia Foundation义工最心痛的
是，月熊在年年月月的折磨中，会和人类一样受到心灵上无比的创伤！


月熊需要我们的帮忙。
有能力的就出点钱，没能力的也能身体力行，坚决不再盲目的迷信胆汁的效用，不买熊胆汁，也劝阻身边其他人不要再买，让他们知道他们为了一己的利益而伤害了不少的月熊。

Failed

oooh... I failed for this month as well.. I went to see chinese tradition sin seh(is a she, quite young and pretty, :) he he) last weekend, found out my ovari is a bit "cold" and ovulation is not so good, have to take medicine to 調理. She asked me to take 1 pill every day for one month.

Initially, I was ok with it as i thought it should be in capsule, who knows, the "pill" is very BIG one lor, like old style "bak fong yun".. I "wah"-ed at the front of the counter, nearly to scream .. how to eat??? The nurse calm me down by telling me, just like eating chocolate lor - CHOCOLATE??!!#$# Emmmm.. I should take a photo to show over here .. i think .. not easy to be concieved.... what more to say to be a mother.

Gathering

I was looking forward the gathering with my childhood friends a months ago. This is our first gathering in KL since SPM (such a long time). I believe, none of us thinking to have this gathering until the recent wedding dinner - mine, chi hau & may sham. As our wedding dates were so close to each other, and we are CHINESE, have to follow CHINESE TRADITION as well, can not attend each other's wedding ceremony, so it ring our bell to have a gathering by hook or by crook... Yet, still couldn't gather everybody during the gathering.. somebody FFK us... This is wat we called -- friends.. cos .. we can only ffk friends but not family as well as our partner. ha ha.. KK & PY.. both of you better spend us a dinner..if not... 唱通Lanchang 大街.. hmmm..

Nevertheless, we still have a great evening.. Pau Len was joining us, we lost her contact for almost 5 years.. finally we have her back!! Thanks to tammy, she is the one get her contact from her company database.. (not sure legal or not). World is so small.. Pau Len staying in Semenyih now, so close to my place, but we never meet each other before..

Friends.. I miss our wonderful time in Lanchang...

Hope

After wedding day in September 2008, we plan to get baby.. we know he or she will be granted to us by god when fate is came.. obviously, we miss out the fate in first month. I actually decided to get conceived only after December 2008.. cos i got my hair perm in September, I read from an article, better to get conceived after 3 months of chemical treatment. WH disagree, as he felt, not easy to get a baby, we shouldn't do any contraception. So.. my hope to get conceived getting stronger.. may be i hate about dissapointment every month. :)

Frankly, I don't felt any pressure to get pregnant.. just that.. i don't like the feeling of waiting and dissapointing.. I'm kind of person..run out of patient easily.. Emm.. I know I should improve in this area.. and I really tried my best to againts impatient.. seems the result was not favourable.. ha ha..

I did check my temperature everyday, after a low temperature last weekend, my temperature was shoot up to 36.6 degree celcius. It has been 2 days in high temperature, and this need to keep on for another 2 weeks then only it will gives me the first indicator of pregnant.. ha ha.. c how it goes la.. :)

Poor Proton Service..

all these while.. i facing a problem at my Savvy - jerking while it is slow down or changing gear. I complaint this to proton service center since day 1 i got the car. However, their technician told that, AMT ma.. its like that, cannot fix one. OK.. fine.. i accept their explanation since they are expert. This problem getting worse recently, i raised this up duing this round of service, and they found out, the root cause is coin cable (dunno wat is this, but something to do with engine), and I have to pay RM750 to fix it. i was curious, y this never been brought up, and now only they found out the root cause. Just a minute later, i knew.. u know y? The car's warranty just expired last month, I have to bear whatever repair to my car!!! of cos i didn't pay for this, and rather to get other workshop to check first, or else.. my neck will be fulled with blood!! at the same time, they told me that they find out other problem at speed sensor, and this again will cost me for another RM3oo.. They never discover these problems during the warranty period, and try to grape money from consumer's pocket immediate after the warranty...!!!!! :(

I asked, how come u never tell me at the 1st place as I raised this up at the first day, he revert saying that there is no record to proof i raised this before and show me the record from his computer, my first 1000km & 15000km service records were deleted!!! They tend to make profit in such way!! I was so angry and annoy to what they have done at me.

I told my hubby abt this incident, he said- what can we do? the only way to get this hurdle away is .. change car.. ha ha.. my Savvy is only 2 years old, if i renew my car.. really a big lose.

I'm so regret to make a wrong decision to go for local produced car. Initially, i tot car is only a transportation, no need to go for branded, but now i know.. its not only the brand, but also the value together - Quality assurance, post sales service and most importantly.. peace of mind!

Here to start my First Blog

all these while... i was reading ppl's blog and never think of having my own blog to recording down my foot print in my life.. after reading SP's blog and i found out - good to have a blog for my good n bad.. as one of memories for wai hoong n me.. hopefully.. our kids and friends surrounding us.

and .. i hope i can sustain in writing blog and try to brain wash waihoong to do so.. ha ha..